we need a plan

I emailed Darin and told him I was in for the May show but that I wanted to be leaner. He said he has a plan that we need to discuss to change my diet around so that I burn more fat. Well shoot, that sounds great. Why wasn't I doing this before? I'm sure it's going to suck a lot. Darin's ideas are never fun. But I'm super curious as to what the changes are going to be.

May 14, 2011

I'm doing the show. 6 weeks from Saturday. Here we go again....

now what.

The show came and went very fast. The entire week before the show was not fun. I really don't remember much, it's almost like I was black out drunk the whole time. But I do know it was miserable. I don't think the carb cycling and water depletion really did that much for me anyway. If I did another show I think I would skip that part. The carb cycling for sure. And just do the water reduction right at the end. I think that would give me better results and be much more tolerable....for everyone.
The afternoon show was a blur. The poses were called so fast I couldn't harldy get into one before the next was already being called. I don't think I posed too well. But hey, I was the only one in my division and it was my first time. so...I guess it was ok. I just don't think I got lean enough. I still looked really heavy from the belly button down. Ugh. So if I do the May show I need to still cut weight and up my cardio and all I really want to do right now is binge out on the pot-luck going on in the teachers lounge. I ate two pieces of pizza saturday night. They were amazing. I could have ate a lot more. I easily could have finished the entire pizza, but I also didn't want to get sick. So I kept it in check. But my blood sugars were so messed up that I couldn't get to sleep until 2:30 in the morning and then I was up at 4, thinking about the waffles at the continental breakfast. I waited until 6 and went down to check out the waffle situation and they were out of batter. I almost burnt the place down with my rage. But instead  I went to breakfast at the Snow City Cafe- it was awesome. And I didn't get sick from it either. I was totally bloated and I've been making some pretty bad farts, but no explosive poops or pukes so I'm calling it a victory.
I went to the gym last night and ran two miles and lifted a bit and tried to work my abs, but I still felt too bloated. I couldn't breathe because my gut was in the way. Then when I came home my calves started cramping up really bad. I was a mess. I didn't make it to the gym this morning, but I'll go after school.
I'm technically back on the diet and training again. But I'm not sure about the show. I'm not sure this is my style.

ta daa

weigh in

I had my first weigh in yesterday. It was less stressful than anticipated. There are about 40 competitors, mostly male of course. But maybe 10 girls total. I think I'm the only novice girl, which is great- I win! But also means that I'll go up against whoever wins the open division. But whatever, I'm ready.
I am a disgusting color of burnt rust/dirty brown right now. It really does make my eyes and teeth look alarmingly white. That is about the only positive thing that I can come up with for perks of painting yourself.
Cutting water is harder than cutting food. I like to be able to drink as much as I want, whenever I want. This dehydrating bit sucks.
I have to lay on blankets I brought from home so I don't ruin the hotel sheets. That's how dark I am.
Today I'm suppossed to have a lot of carbs so that my muscles look "full" but I don't know what that means really. So...I think I'll wait until my friend Lissa gets here- she's done a couple figure shows- and let her tell me if my muscles look full. She gets the great job of glueing my bikini to my body. No wardrobe failures possible with this glue. Thank goodness, because that bikini has a way of going right up my butt like you wouldn't believe.

team sweetcorn

I am the luckiest girl in the world. I was walking through the office at school yesterday and recieved a delivery of flowers, from someone with a very thick accent, the delivery girl told me. When I read the card and saw that it was from my parents I just giggled and said, yeah they're from Iowa. I love the flowers, they made my day extra special. It seems like the timing is always spot on with right when I need a boost something really good happens. Like the time I was really dragging and didn't want to do my afternoon set of cardio but I went in and as I walked in the owner of the gym gave me free sweats and a sweatshirt to wear at the competition. That got me all excited and definitely helped me through that cardio session. Last week I got a package from a friend full of some treasures and a super nice card. She sent me a bottle of spray tan(more on that later) some rockin sunglasses and  a cookbook, which I promptly read front to back and have already imagined all of the things I'll burn. A few weeks ago my friend Kelsey gave me a card with a coffee gift card in it, just to say thanks for being a friend. I'm sure there are about a million more nice things people have done for me, helped me with, even just nice comments, all of these things have really helped me stay focused and on track. It really does take a team. I couldn't have done this alone, and am really appreciative for all my friends and family, and coworkers who have helped me along this transformation.

Ok, enough serious talk.

Last night I was home alone with several bottles of spray tan. I decided to go for it. That might have been a mistake. I am now a dirty shade of spottedness. My skin id weird in places. Maybe thyroid related? But yes mom. I am taking my pill. But I'll investigate that further later. Anyways, there are patches on my stomach and around my armpits and the back of my neck that maybe don't shed skin as fast as the rest of my body and these patches are now REALLY dark. I'm a leopard. But in reality that sounds a lot sexier than it actually is. Hopefully, the really dark stuff covers it up. Otherwise.....maybe the judges will have a cat fetish?  However, I showered this morninng and the spots dont' look soo bad. Definitely still there, but I think I'm going to have to see a doctor to find out what they are caused by and what I need to do to get rid of them, and there's no way thats going to happen before the show. So spots are what I'm working with.

Reducing my water today to one gallon. It should be ok. One gallon is still quite a bit. It's weird but after two days of no carbs and 50 yesterday- now I'm supossed to have 80 today and I feel fat and bloated. On the brink of desperate, with thoughts that I need to do more, workout more, lift more, do something drastic. But I'm holding on to the knowledge that Darin is the man, he knows what he's talking about. There is more science to this than I'm aware of and I just need to relax and stick to the plan. I've done all I can. I left the gym this morning and realized it was the last workout, I still have cardio tonight- don't worry- double cardio never stops, but as far as lifting. I'm done. I'm nervous that I'm going to look soft or fat by saturday. But I'm also aware that I'm a total nutcase.

carbs are great!

I'm back on carbs. I had a half a cup of oatmeal this morning and feel alive again. Its crazy how I almost instantly felt better. The effects of the macronutrients on the body truly are amazing. I only get 50g today...and none of it will be from candy...but I'm still pretty excited. I got waxed last night. Check that off my list of things I ever want to do again. Saying it hurts is a bit of an understatement, but I'll spare you the details. I did my last lower body workout today and will do my last upper body workout tomorrow. I also gotta get my nails done, have one last posing session with Darin, and start painting my body with the spray tanner. Phew.

day two of no carbs

i made it through day one of no carbs. but i am struggling today(and it's only 10:00am). i can't wait until my workout tomorrow morning is over and I can have 25g of carbs pronto. that's 1/2 cup of oatmeal- which is double what I'd usually eat. I'd trade it all for some swedish fish and skittles. but that's apparently "not a good idea" according to Darin. He never thinks my ideas are good. I just have to remember that my ideas got me to 254 and his ideas got me to 158. i hate being wrong.
i get waxed today. pretty much from the eyebrows down. there is not much fun involved in waxing.

goodbye glycogen

today and tomorrow. no carbs. as in zero. not even carbs from veggies or protein shakes. brace yourself, this could get ugly. if i make it to wednesday the battle will be won.


big news, totally unrelated. I have 25 chickens on order currently being incubated and will be ready to go home April 16th. I couldn't be more excited. My next blog will have to be about me becoming a farmer. kimgetsdomestic or keepingupwithkimandthechicks... I'll think of something clever.  I have decided to name all the chickens after female singers. kelly clarkson, lady gaga, madonna, beyonce....you get the picture.

punch a hole in your throat

i'm not going to lie, these last two weeks before the competition are/have been brutal. I'm really low on carbs, energy, and fat. I know I'm not any fun to be around. I'm over emotional, super sensitive, and have no patience. I can't remember something from one thought to the next. Easily distracted. Everything takes me longer to accomplish than it should. My time in the gym has increased, bot because I'm doing more, or chatting more, I'm just not able to attend to the task at hand. It takes me a few seconds to snap out of it and all those seconds add up to about an extra 45 minutes. Its ridiculous. But this is the week. the last week. I really have only two more hard days Monday and Tuesday with 0 carbs...well, less than 20 hopefully. Carbs are everywhere, even in my protein shakes, so those are going to be hard to avoid- i guess if I just stick to turkey breast and chicken breast. hmmm, that could be tricky.
the past couple of days I've been waking up hungry around 2 or 3. Two days ago I woke up and had a protein shake and went back to bed. Yesterday I made it through with just some water. Today I woke up, didn't want to eat or drink anything so I calculated out in my head the time I would need to get ready go to town, get a coffee, get gas and be at the gym at 7 when they open. It is impossible to get a coffee in this town before 7. frickin insane! I could burn this city down with my anger. but that might just be the lack of carbs talking, so I'll keep it in check and wait for the gym to open so I can go about my day. but i've been up since 2:30 so if anyone looks at me funny there's a good chance I'm going to flip out.

big news. I weighed in at 160 this morning. That means I actually weigh what my drivers license says I weigh. First time for everything. Mom says I should go get a new one and knock off 20 pounds. best idea of the morning.

redoubt reporter

http://redoubtreporter.wordpress.com/2011/03/16/building-on-a-goal-—%C2%A0weight-loss-turns-into-gain-of-new-competitive-interest/


it's a very well written article on what I've been doing. And the pictures are kind of funny too.

I still need to practice/come up with/practice my routine. ahhh crap.

8 more days. i can do this.

two weeks to go

i have less than that actually. 12 days. but who's counting right. i'm getting to the stupid phase. my body fat is now 11.1. I have noticed that I'm not able to talk as well as I used to. Words don't come to me as easily as they used to. I forget everything. I've been told that sometimes its like I don't understand English anymore. In the evenings I have a hard time doing much. I can't seem to focus or stay on task. It takes me longer in the gym too, just getting weights racked and put away it takes me a little longer. The best way I can describe it is that you know how when you bring one of those 3D picture books to your face and zone in on it so that the image appears, that's what is happening to me all the time. I'm coming in and out of focus all day.  here are some pics.

goodbye never never land

I'm so glad Peter Pan is over. It feels like I have so much time. Big sigh of relief. I've slightly changed my diet to include only whole foods- so nothing refined or processed....and all that really means is that now at lunch time instead of a sandwich thin, I have 4oz of sweet potatoes for carbs. They're delicious. And I'm off of tuna and onto chicken and salmon twice a week. Muscles are starting to show up. This week I'd like to welcome triceps to the show.

10 sets?! what.

My workouts have been tweaked for the final three weeks and then there is peak week- seven days out from competition...but I'll worry about that later. Right now, I'm just trying to get through Peter Pan and do my double cardio and now my weights have been changed to super high sets. I usually would do three, maybe four sets at the most. So upping it to ten has made me incredibly sore. But hopefully it will make my muscles a lot more defined. That's the goal anyways. Darin hasn't let me down yet, so I guess I'll just keep doing what he says. 24 more days!

my suit is here!!!

These maybe aren't the best pictures, I mean I'm in the teacher's lounge bathroom, trying to be fast because I don't really want anyone to walk in on me. But it fits. It's teeny tiny and fierce. I love it. all the important parts are covered, and nothing more.